Your Grace is Sufficient (song series)

It is a season.  How I have heard that and repeated it in my heart and mind.  A season that I don’t necessarily want over, but one that is more about my kids than my own personal endeavors…with more to do than what I could possibly even attempt.  I am right where God wants me to be at this very moment and I am grateful.  I have a house full of love and joy… and poopy diapers, messes, and tantrums…but mostly laughter and smiles and squishy hugs and “I love you’s”.  There are fleeting moments of inspiration to write or create…though filled with background “music” of milk spilling, hundreds of Legos hitting the floor and a crying baby fighting sleep in the other room.  I have been mastering multitasking and millions of interruptions. It is a season.

I catch myself feeling that I am not doing enough. Bible studies, PTA, small groups, house projects, and play dates aren’t getting my attention and I have to take a step back, and with a deep breath, give myself grace.  It is ok. It is ok not to be involved with everything.  It is just a season. It is ok. God will meet me where I am. His grace is sufficient.

But He said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me. 

2 Corinthians 12:9

I have been waiting for the day to return to writing and recording again.  I guess when my third child was thrown into the mix, my extracurricular activities got second fiddle…or third… or actually it didn’t even make the orchestra and is sitting busted back behind the stage. Though I have had small miniscule opportunities to contribute to my creativity, I mostly use my energy to be a wife and mommy.  So here’s to the day I will eventually get an uninterrupted night sleep, away from the seemingly carefully planned interludes of children crying or parading in my bedroom at all hours of the night. His grace is sufficient for that too…although mine may not be.  As I said, I wouldn’t want this moment passed; I will somehow miss it when it is gone…but right now… I do miss me a bit.  I miss my time to throw into myself and my music. It is a season.

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Your Grace is sufficient

Becki J Buescher

           

If joy comes in the morning

Should I go back to bed

can I push the reset button

or run away instead

The days I run on empty

Overwhelmed or just afraid

That all my imperfections are proudly on display

Calling out for some reprieve

God I need your grace to cover me

Your Grace is sufficient

In my weakness may You shine through

For You know my heart and what I need  

And Your grace is sufficient for me

When it seems I’m good at failing

With more costs beyond my means

And if I hear another whiny voice

I may have to scream

Today I need reminding please

God, that your grace, will cover me

When the world turns upside down

And my mind is spinning round and round

If my body fails and all strength is gone

and I just cannot go on

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Grace, Grace, God’s grace

Grace that will pardon and cleanse within

Grace, grace God’s grace

Grace that is greater than all our sin

“Grace Greater than all our sin”

Words: Julia H. Johnston Music: Daniel B. Towner

Only Jesus (song series)

It has been a while since I have blogged or recorded any music.  I have continued to write but haven’t had much time or energy to do much with it.

I am in my last days of pregnancy as today is my due date, and though I am ready to meet our little boy (and move on from this aching, overstuffed body) I am feeling the urgency to accomplish much before there is a baby in my arms.

I wrote this song early in the days of when we were still struggling with the initial injury and surgery of Will’s knee and the changes that occurred in our lives as a result of that incident. 

I have to admit…I couldn’t imagine any different way to spend the first part of this year than the way we did.  We were two stay at home parents with two amazing kids getting our full attention, and we were overwhelmed by God’s abundant provision through multiple means.  He truly blessed us in ways unimaginable!  I would not have changed this time a bit!  We grew so much in our faith, in our marriage, and as parents. 

The one area in our life that has remained constant is our reliance on Jesus.  He has held us in every moment and as we reflect during this Eastertime, we especially focus on His sacrifice for us.  I cannot help but sit in awe and reverence over such a love.   It is unfathomable and so undeserved.  But He has displayed all authority in just His name alone.  What wonders will be when we utter it or cry it out?  Never underestimate the power of His name and work in our lives!

Neither is there salvation in any other: for there is none other name under heaven given among men, whereby we must be saved.

Acts 4:12

As a special treat Sam and Elsa sang an intro and outro to this song…a very familiar tune to anyone raised in the church.

I also have been working on my piano skills…so this is my first song written and recorded with a piano…which still needs to be tuned!

May our Lord Jesus Christ himself and God our Father, who loved us and by his grace gave us eternal encouragement and good hope, encourage your hearts and strengthen you in every good deed and word.

2 Thessalonians 2:16-17

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Only Jesus

Becki J Buescher

When days are dim I call on Jesus

If not for Him I would not be

When trials find me I’ll be wanting

His gentle, loving hand of peace

So do not fear, do not be weary

His yoke is easy, burden light

My soul at last will quench its yearning

As I rest in His great might

Until my eyes no longer see the sun

Until my body bids me good night

Until my lungs give up their final breath

My hope will rest on one

My Jesus, Only Jesus

My redeemer and my joy

And if words just fail to come

May my lips find strength for one

Jesus, Only Jesus,   Je    -   sus

Sharing our burdens and blessings

Wow

God is good. 

I should just stop writing right there and let that just be my post, but to neglect to back that up with my experiences recently would leave me aching to tell more.

It has been one month since Will has injured his knee and we have been tested and we have come out stronger.  He was operated on yesterday morning and though he is in pain and exhausted, we are grateful and thankful.

I have never been one that finds it easy to ask for help, let alone accept it. But recently after Will’s injury, diagnosis, surgery and subsequent inability to work, we have been brought to that point where we must drop our pride and allow others to share our burdens.  It is not easy for either of us and I think it brings me conviction on how I also struggle to jump up and tend to other's needs as I should.

I am very humbled, very overwhelmed, and very thankful for those that have pushed through our “we are fine, we can manage” mentality and overcame it with blessings.  From food to finances we have had an abundance of faithful servants coming to our aid.  We feel undeserving of such a response but we are very grateful for all who have prayed so diligently for us and have served us in such beautiful ways. 

It simply amazes me how God uses others to care for us and the existence of many people praying over us actually feels tangible as evidence from our complete peace and even joy during this time.  We look ahead.  We look to the day where Will is healed.  We look excitedly to the day where our little unborn baby boy is in our arms.  We look with joy to the day where we can turn and be that help and blessing to those in our lives that are also in need. 

But now we rejoice in where God has brought us today. 

We rest in thankfulness and reflection of the unexpected gifts and provision that God has been so evidently orchestrating in our lives.  We are undeserving.  We hope, however, that our faith in this current season can be an encouragement to others that are going through their own trials.  We are also overjoyed that we can be that example to our fully attentive front row audience…our children.  They watch us.  They listen to us.  They mimic us, and we hope that our example will grow their faith now and when they go through difficult situations.  May they turn to God always and allow Him first place in their hearts and lives!

Let us not hide our hurts, fears, or struggles.  Let us share and also pray for others in the rough moments in their lives so that we may follow up with the undeniable blessings that God WILL provide.  Whether in this life or the next, God will make all things new and bring all things together for our good and for His Glory.  May God be praised in ALL moments, for it is in those moments that He makes us more like Him if we turn and let Him hold and carry us through.

Will and I had recently led worship at our church and had purposefully chosen songs directly pertaining to where we were in this season of our lives.  So, I want to leave you with the lyrics of one that spoke such truth to our life.

"Never Once"

by Matt Redman

Standing on this mountaintop

Looking just how far we’ve come

Knowing that for every step

You were with us

Kneeling on this battle ground

Seeing just how much You’ve done

Knowing every victory

Was Your power in us

Scars and struggles on the way

But with joy our hearts can say

Yes, our hearts can say

Never once did we ever walk alone

Never once did You leave us on our own

You are faithful, God, You are faithful

Every step we are breathing in Your grace

Evermore we’ll be breathing out Your praise
You are faithful, God, You are faithful

Faith in the Face of Trial

There are times when I write for therapy.  This is one of those times.  I write in hopes of working through my struggles and erratic emotions and my fears of the unknown.  Maybe in the midst of it all I  may pass on some encouragement for those going through the fires as well.

So how do we respond when faced with a challenging trial?

My husband was recently injured playing basketball at church. No one was at fault. It was just one of those things that just happens.  At first, after the knee injury occurred and when he had to be off work for a bit, we understood that God was going to teach us something through this and our faith would be strengthened.  We accepted that and prayed for the best outcome, thinking, God has our attention; maybe He will make the injury minimal?  Well, it wasn’t. We found out that it was probably the worst-case scenario injury that could have happened to his knee, and to make matters worse, I am 6 months pregnant and we had just reduced to a one-income household.  So for the time being, we are a zero-income household and will have a lot of medical bills arriving within the next few months.

  

I admit…I hold a lot of fear.  We have broken down many times. Many tears have already been shed.  We know in the depths of our hearts that God WILL bring us through.  It is difficult, however, to truly let go of the worries and concerns of the hardships that may lie ahead.  We have already seen our faith strengthen. We have seen our marital relationship strengthen.  A few convictions and decisions have rocked us already. 

GOD HAS OUR COMPLETE ATTENTION!

I believe everything happens for a reason.  God IS in control.  I know we will grow immensely in this process and pray that His glory will shine through in our trials.  Don’t get me wrong…at this moment, as we are at the start of the difficulties, if we could change that split second when he twisted that knee on the gym floor we would do it in a heartbeat.  When all is said and done, however, I know we will be grateful for every lesson and victory in this process and would never change it for we come out wiser and stronger in the end. We are thankful for the blessings in our lives and the friends and family that are already in prayer for us and will walk along side us throughout this journey.  Let me say again…we ARE truly blessed.

We serve an almighty God. 

Jehovah Jireh - God is our provider

Jehovah Rapha - God is our healer

2 Corinthians 12:9

But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me.

Philippians 4:19

And my God will supply every need of yours according to his riches in glory in Christ Jesus.

Psalm 34:19

Many are the afflictions of the righteous, but the LORD delivers him out of them all

Isaiah 58:8

Then your light shall break forth like the morning, your healing shall spring forth speedily. And your righteousness shall go before you, the glory of the LORD shall be your rear guard

Philippians 4:6-7

Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done. Then you will experience God’s peace, which exceeds anything we can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus.

We have faith in the One who sees all, knows all, is in all and loves us unconditionally.  May we be reminded in every difficult, painful, and joyful moment of His unending grace and faithfulness in our lives.  God is with us and He carries us when we cannot carry ourselves.

I‘m sure many songs will come out of this in the end…so stay tuned. 

My Unborn Blessing (song series)

I have always been blessed carrying my little ones until they are ready to meet the world.  I consider it a privilege, a joy, and an honor to be the keeper of a preciously designed creation.  Even in the moments of sickness, discomfort, and outright pain, God reminds me of this entrusted gift, and the joy that follows this short season of pregnancy. 

For you formed my inward parts; you knitted me together in my mother's womb. I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Wonderful are your works; my soul knows it very well. My frame was not hidden from you, when I was being made in secret, intricately woven in the depths of the earth. Your eyes saw my unformed substance; in your book were written, every one of them, the days that were formed for me, when as yet there was none of them.

Psalm 139: 13-16

We are surely fortunate and blessed! He loves and has chosen each one of us to be made in His image.  We are all created on purpose and known by our Maker!

So, my little one… you are already deeply loved and cherished.  May, by God’s grace, you grow strong and healthy as we joyously and patiently wait for your time to meet us face to face.

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My Unborn Blessing

Becki J Buescher

                                          

You were known before we knew                  

My unborn blessing, God saw you

In unformed beauty before your time

God had you in mind

                                  

Knit and sewn, you are His own

Perfectly designed

                                             

Can you hear me singing over you?

While you’re dancing within my womb

Every moment with you is a gift of God

So I will praise

I dream of what you will look like

I long to gaze into your eyes

But until that day, in my belly stay

And grow strong and safe inside

                                

Rocked to sleep by my heartbeat

May you rest secure and warm

As we anxiously await the day you’re born