I have been blessed with a great number of opportunities to
lead others in worship in my life. From
main church services, college groups, summer and winter camp, retreats, bible studies,
conferences, to small groups in my home, I have loved and enjoyed leading others
with my guitar. What I find, however, is
that no matter how many times I have led, I still struggle with fear and
anxiety and generally feeling unfit as a musician and leader.
It has been a long while since I have been called on to lead
a church worship service and it is amazing how, as I was recently requested to
lead, I immediately felt anxious and my focus was on me “not screwing up”. The focus was on ME. Since I had not had an impending service to
lead in a while I lacked preparedness and felt out of shape as a leader, a
guitarist and vocalist…and I mourn over that.
I turn and find myself relying on my own ability and strength until I
get the stern but gracious reminder of the source and reason of what I am to
do. I am called to WORSHIP.
Forgive me Lord when my anxiety overcomes my view of how big
you are!
Whether my voice cracks, string breaks, I miss a chord, or
forget the words, He is on the throne and He WILL be worshiped…by ME!
Some of my greatest worship moments have been when I let go
of my limited abilities and rely on His infinite power and simply….Glorify Him.
May I worship without the distraction of myself!
God reminds us time and time again in His Word how He uses
the broken, the fearful, the stubborn, the afflicted, and the weak to do mighty
things…for He is mighty to save!
The Lord your God is in your midst,
a Mighty One
who will save;
He will rejoice over you with gladness;
He
will quiet you by his love;
He will exult over you with loud singing.
Zephaniah 3:17
Why do we doubt when He calls us to do the scary? For if He calls us, He will carry us!
Thank you Lord for knowing me more than I know myself. You have gifted me and directed me and no
matter what…You will rejoice and sing over me.
How could I not offer the same to you?
O worship the King all-glorious above,
O gratefully sing His power and His love:
Our shield and defender, the Ancient of Days,
Pavilioned in splendor and girded with praise.
O measureless Might, ineffable Love,
While angels delight to worship above!
Thy mercies how tender, how firm to the end
Our Maker, Defender, Redeemer and Friend!
"O worship the King" by Robert Grant
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