You will always be (song series)

My third, and probably last, baby just turned two last month and it has become such a reminder how the days pass by way too fast.  As he grows, as well as my older two kids, I am acutely aware that I am approaching the “lasts” of some of their milestones.  Granted, I am certainly overjoyed by the new achievements and more independence that they have found but I am realizing the “baby stage” is quickly disappearing.  Before I know it, like all mothers (and grandmothers) remind us so often, soon our kids will be off to school, college, and married off with their own kids.  It is but a blink away.

I wrote this song through tears because it wrecked me as a mommy. It broke me because it shed light on how time fades and passes quickly.  Babies become grown before I am ready or even aware.

 So mommies and daddies of littles, let us remember to rest in joy during those young years. Though we may face each day without adequate sleep, with a sink overloaded with dishes, cluttered floors, and an undone to do list, these times are so precious. Our children will forever be our babies no matter how fast they age.  I don’t want to rush another minute.

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You will always be

Becki J Buescher

Piano and mix by Robert Geiger

It may be the last time you cry for me

The last head upon my chest as you’re drifting off to sleep

And maybe when there’s less a need for me

You still will always see I was your first love

For you will always be my baby

Yes you will always be my baby

I love to watch to grow as you do things on your own

To see the laughter fill your eyes will joy and life

When the hard days come to me you’ll run

My heart can’t help but break when yours is broken.

Don’t you ever doubt how incredible you are

How much you are loved and treasured in my heart

God has made you brave, so keep trusting as I pray

That you cling to the One who holds me too

When your hand slips from mine into another’s

To have and to hold in love forever

In joy I’ll watch you go and form a family of your own

Yet a part of you remains within my heart

Beautiful Surrender (Song Series)

But he was pierced for our transgressions;

he was crushed for our iniquities;
upon him was the chastisement that brought us peace,

and with his wounds we are healed.

Isaiah 53:5

We all fear losing control, let alone choosing to let go of the control. When we give up we say we surrender. Many see it as a negative, weak response. We must have lacked will or strength. But what if we look at surrender as gaining life instead of losing it?

Surrender no longer becomes a white flag… it becomes a white heart. It becomes a heart that is ready to release all the ill attempts of perfecting ourselves, on our own strength. It becomes a heart that is given over to the One who knows us better than we know ourselves.

His wounds have already been made. He has already been pierced and crushed. Healing is waiting. Peace is waiting. Our surrender is waiting.

The sacrifice has been made, the offer is waiting…what will you decide?

I will go a step further. True surrender goes beyond our “Ok, Jesus, here’s my life, make it awesome.” If we surrender to Christ to see what we get out of it…it is NOT surrender.  He gave Himself up for us.  We give up of ourselves for the Glory of Him and His Kingdom.  That doesn’t mean unicorns and rainbows much of the time.  The Christian walk is not easy, but we know the reward lies beyond. It lies beyond ourselves, and beyond this life.  The desires of our hearts change to match His.  Then, there becomes, no other result, other than beauty, grace, peace, joy, etc.  None of these are circumstantial.  They are known when we live within the arms of our Father, seeking His will - living for His Glory.

"I have been crucified with Christ; and it is no longer I who live, but Christ lives in me; and the life which I now live in the flesh I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave Himself up for me.
Galations 2:20

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Beautiful Surrender

Becki J Buescher

When I can’t speak

When I can’t see beyond me

What do You see?

When I am broken

Could these wounded pieces of me

Bring you glory?

I fall down at your feet

Lord I’m ready

Pour me out

In this beautiful surrender

A picture of grace

When my knees are on the ground

And tears are on my face

as I let go, You raise me up

up from the grave to glory

In this beautiful surrender

How far could I run

How far could I go where you can’t meet me

With your mercy

Your love is unending

Forever pursuing

To heal me, perfectly

I Need Only Be Still (song series)

When the freshly released Israelites looked back to see the Egyptians in fast pursuit, doubt and fear must have been palpable as they stood before the Red Sea.  Most were already prepared to give up their newfound freedom and return to the life of slavery they knew.  They questioned whether God would bring them this far and leave them to die or be captured again.  What short-term memories did the Hebrew children hold even as days before God’s power and miracles were displayed before their eyes? Before the first wave was parted, before the hardened heart of Pharaoh could attempt to retrieve his former property, Moses stood and addressed a crowd beginning to fall apart…

Moses answered the people, “Do not be afraid. Stand firm and you will see the deliverance the Lord will bring you today. 

The Egyptians you see today you will never see again. 

The Lord will fight for you; you need only to be still.”

-Exodus 14: 13-14

There are moments I sit overwhelmed.  I attempt to fix it all, to handle it myself, which proves a terrible idea and leads to devastation and broken relationships.  I am not meant to do life alone.  It isn’t my life to begin with.

Oh how we exhaust ourselves fighting battles we are convinced we can handle by ourselves.   With sword in hand we fight thousands of enemies…from greed, selfishness, deceit, and self-indulgence to pride.  We fight the surroundings of a pagan world and corrupt leadership.  We hurt and fight for the broken, the isolated, and the fearful around us. We fight our lack of control and insecurities.  We fight our addictions and strongholds.  We must step back and realize we were never meant to fight these alone…but equipped with the Wisdom to know who can…Our Savior and Lord, the Great I AM.  The one who was, and is, and is to come…our Redeemer.  He will fight for us, we need only to be still... not still and do nothing. Still, confident in His presence and His word. Still, on our knees with expectation and hope.  Still, with praise dripping from our lips to reach our Savior’s ear.  Still, in His holy presence.

The Lord will fight for you; you need only to be still.

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I need only be still

Becki J Buescher

The battle rages all around

With crippling fear, strength is gone

When my heart is weak

And my flesh is failing

The Lord fights for me

I need only be still

The Lord fights for me

I need only be still

Mighty Warrior attend to

My call on Your name for rescue

to find refuge at Your feet

I need only be still

Greater is He who is within me

Than all that is within the world

Victory has claimed my heart

I will rest assured

Still before a righteous King

Still I offer everything

Still in the presence of the great I AM