You have captured my heart (song series)

In light of Valentines day I am going to post a song written specifically for our wedding day.  I can’t believe it will be nine years in August that we have been in wedded bliss!  What blessings have fallen on us during these last several years and I have to admit each year gets richer.  We have been through rough moments and many moments of laughter. No one can get me to laugh like Will!

So before our wedding I wrote this song.  I asked Will to write what he would like to say to me in the song and I worded it to fit.  I tried not to embellish too much. Don’t worry I had him check my work before I made him sing his part…just to make sure he meant every word.  I think he had no choice but to agree.  We wanted the song sung at the ceremony but knew neither of us could possibly get through the song live without breaking so we recorded it.  This was the recording we played at the wedding.  I had the joy of singing with my husband and it brings me back to our early days and challenges me now as I recite the words and ask myself..."have I followed through?"

We have grown so much in our marriage and I am so grateful for every moment…good and bad.  The challenges drew us closer both to each other and to the Lord. 

Will, I am so thankful for you. You are my best friend. I love you dearly and deeply and as long as God gives us breath you will remain my one true love…you have Captured my heart!

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You have captured my heart AUDIO

You have captured my heart

Becki J Buescher

I will lead you the best I know how

Be patient my love as God works with my heart

I ‘ll protect you as He gives strength and

make you feel beautiful, Becki, your worth so much to me

I’ll stand in a crowd for you and give you all I have

May I spend everyday proving my love to you.

You’re the one I’ve always waited for

Before there was time your heart was meant for mine

I will love you forever, no matter what the days may bring

I’ll stay by your side and Laugh with you, Pray with you, 

Sing with you, Cry with you, Dream with you

Until Jesus call you home I promise from this day on

You have captured my heart

I’ll be your sunshine on a cloudy day

Follow you hard as God shows us the way

To love you, support you, trust you, adore you

Will, I am your biggest fan

And when you need a shoulder

I’ll be there to pray the burdens away

May I help you be the man God meant you to be

With God by our side with all our hopes and our fears

We’ll give Him all our moments and praise

And each time we may fall, just know that

I’ll always be on my knees for you

What have you got to lose? (song series)

There are many times in my life when I struggle with wanting to stay in the shadows.  I, like many others, find it difficult to exit out of my comfort zone and do things that scare me.  I had heard this challenge before: “do something every day that scares you.”  I try to take it to heart.  I don’t necessarily seek out opportunities that I fear, but if one presents itself (that I feel called to do) I may, with hesitation, say that phrase under my breath, with a quick prayer, and do it.  I know great things come from putting yourself out there for a noble cause.  Being vulnerable, and open for rejection is not fun but after it is all said and done I usually find it wasn’t as bad as my very-exaggerated-negative-outcome-worst-case-scenario mind had conjured up. I know that was a ridiculous description - but I felt it.  Many times the blessings outweighed the risk ten fold and I find myself sitting there wondering why I made such a big deal about it.

This song was written in response to my often fearful attempts to share with others something that, to many, seem so controversial…primarily the gospel…but it can extend to many different areas of confrontation that I may have felt called to address or accomplish but rather I stand frozen in fear.  So, this was written as my motivator. 

“Out of my distress I called on the LORD; the LORD answered me and set me free. The LORD is on my side; I will not fear.  What can man do to me?” 

Psalm 118:5-6

This whole chapter is a gem displaying His steadfast love and I encourage you to read it!

Disclaimer: (get used to this statement) The songs posted are raw and live -no bells and whistles-rough drafts recorded on my iPad with only vocals and guitar. 

click here to listen to What Have You Got to Lose audio

What have you got to lose?

Becki J Buescher

God calls me to do

But I find I do not

Why so scared of what is unknown?

Will I be put down, humiliated, drug through the dirt?

I cannot sit back in fear

I won’t back down   I want no regrets

If I missed a chance to speak

My purpose wasn’t met

Its not for myself.  Not what I have to gain

Its what you’ve got to lose -what have you got to lose?

Rewards follow those who take a chance to give

and risk losing a piece of themselves

Trials will find me with attempts to bind me

And cause me to fall

His promises will stand

           

When I know the need’s more but

I’m scared of the door hitting me on the way out. 

For I feel God is near and He says do not fear

Or lose myself in doubt

Worship in the Waiting (song series)

I love writing songs. I am not trained professionally in any way…either vocally or in guitar, but have found joy in putting a melody to my thoughts. I began writing in college and have had the opportunity to record my first CD a little over 12 years ago. Since that time I have continued this cycle of writing lyrics, setting it aside, returning to it later to attempt to come up with a guitar part, then finish it off with a melody.

It then sits there in a journal. 

Lately I have been convicted about all the hoarding I do with my songs that I began organizing them and creating a journal of only finished songs…and I have accumulated many over the years.  I have had a great desire to record again but timing and resources seem to not be in my favor.  It will happen. I just don’t know when.

So, I have decided to begin posting some of my music. Some songs have never been heard before (not even by my husband).  If God has placed in me a song – I feel obligated to share it in hopes to encourage another.  It is sometimes very hard for me to share my songs.  It is a very vulnerable position.  They are my innermost personal thoughts and convictions and along with “developing” guitar skills, make critique, though good for development , VERY hard to accept without feeling a bit wounded.

Throughout the next several months I will begin sharing my songs.  Many will be just me and a guitar recorded on an iPad.  Hopefully soon I will be able to track them better in a studio of sorts. 

In the meantime I take Psalm 96:1 very literally.  

“Oh sing to the LORD a new song; sing to the LORD, all the earth!”

So I will sing my new songs to anyone who has ears to hear of His goodness.

Today, however, I will post a song many may have already heard from my first CD.  It is my Blog’s namesake “Worship in the Waiting”.  It was written in response to Psalm 73:26… and to worship in and through everything. 

“My flesh and my heart may fail,
but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.”

You can check out my first CD Becki J “Roots” on iTunes or Amazon...or purchase a CD from me :)

May You be blessed in listening and reading!

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Worship in the Waiting AUDIO

Worship in The Waiting

Becki J Buescher

I will wait on You,

For Your plan to shine through

and though my flesh may fail

You have my heart

You are my Prince of Peace

May I pursue every part of You

I give my weakness to Your strength

and as I wait, I let go

Worship in the Waiting

Transcending all understanding

my heart and body long for that which I need

Your peace will succeed to comfort my soul

I give my eyes to Your face

My thoughts to Your Purity

My mind to Your Wisdom

 My soul to Your LIFE

Humbly Proud?

I may like to think of myself or appear to be a generous, giving, caring person.  But let me be the first to admit…I struggle with selfishness!  Oh how our selfish nature always finds a spot to sliver us in the side.  It seems to always bring our focus back on ourselves…what I don’t have…my excuses…what I feel like I deserve or am entitled to.  Me me me,….. I, I, I.  I may not be trying to puff myself up or show how great I am…but it is still pride.  “Woe is me” is not being humble.   When I focus on me…it is pride.  I have heard and like to use this phrase often…

"Humility is not thinking less of ourselves but thinking of ourselves less".

I have been looking at me too hard for too long.  How can I be motivated or changed when I look to myself for that change and challenge? My only hope comes from He who created me.  He knows every fiber of my being.  He knows how I tick, what defeats me and what motivates me.  Why do we struggle so hard to “get on track” with our lives and leave Him out?  Granted, it is never intentional to do it alone…I just happen to wallow in a struggle of defeat one day and realize…have I invited God into my mess today?   He wants what is best for us but He also knows when we need a kick in the pants…which I find I often do. J  When will I learn from other’s mistakes? He knows I learn best from personal failings I guess…lucky me.

 May I look to You, Lord , when defeat grips me. For only You have the power to change, to heal, to move me forward to be who you created me to be.   She IS in there.  A spirited giving woman empowered by joy and passion with a big vision to see what capabilities lay ahead to utilize and accomplish great things.  To not take up space or survive, but to THRIVE and see what you see in me!  To move without regret, without judgment, without “I can’t”, without envy, without selfishness, without believing the lies I conjure up or get thrown at from the world. God’s love and vision for me is greater!

Be Thou my Vision, O Lord of my heart;Naught be all else to me, save that Thou art.
Thou my best Thought, by day or by night,
Waking or sleeping, Thy presence my light.

Be Thou my Wisdom, and Thou my true Word;I ever with Thee and Thou with me, Lord;
Thou my great Father, I Thy true son;
Thou in me dwelling, and I with Thee one.

Be Thou my battle Shield, Sword for the fight;
Be Thou my Dignity, Thou my Delight;
Thou my soul’s Shelter, Thou my high Tower:
Raise Thou me heavenward, O Power of my power.

Riches I heed not, nor man’s empty praise,
Thou mine Inheritance, now and always:
Thou and Thou only, first in my heart,
High King of Heaven, my Treasure Thou art.

High King of Heaven, my victory won; May I reach Heaven's joys, O bright Heaven's Sun!Heart of my own heart, whatever befall; Still be my Vision, O Ruler of all

Be Thou my Vision

Re-versed in English by Eleanor HullTraditional Irish Hymn