I
am certainly not immune to the frustrations in service to Christ. I often find I make it about me…sometimes so
subtly that I may not even see it clearly or deny it all together. There are
times that I feel like I am aching for “encouragement” from others as a source
of validation of my giftednes. My insides beg to hear if I am doing a good
job…which again…is all about me. See a
trend here? I continue to serve as the war rages within…whether I fight with
the lies of inadequacy that try to diminish my faith, or fight with my pride
that tries to make it about me and my abilites.
It can be tough to truly feel passionate about where I serve God –not
used enough –not used in the right place, etc. I have to remind myself often that just because I may think I am gifted in something…doesn’t mean that is where
God wants to use me at that moment… and IT'S NOT ABOUT ME! I have been guilty also of looking so hard at
an area I want to serve that I neglect to see what God may be leading me to
do. My blog posts sharing my music is a
prime example. It took me a while to share…and I still struggle to wonder if
many listen…but God will lead listeners as He sees fit. I will remain obedient
in the sharing.
But be sure to fear the LORD and serve him faithfully with all your heart; consider what great things he has done for you.
1 Samuel 12:24
So,
we serve with vitality. We are called to
be servants…this is not our home, we are not our own…we are His and He is
deserving of our everything.
For the abilities we have
been given should rightfully return to the Giver!
In Your Debt I Live
Becki J. Buescher
Will I sing if no voice is found in me
Will I dance if these legs have no strength
Will I go if comfort grips me
Will I serve if no one sees but You
Search my heart
Show Your face
Find me longing for your grace
May I loosely hold the gifts you give
In Your debt I live
Will I still give if all is taken away from me
If I am chosen last, will my heart break
Will I still worship wholeheartedly
If it’s just you and me
Who am I undeserving
Who am I nothing apart
Who am I that you would save me
Who am I for you
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